This morning I awoke, got out of bed and proceeded to start my morning routine. Then it hit me: Today would have been my father's 82nd birthday.
Surprisingly, this didn't make me depressed, only sort of wistfully nostalgic. Normally I would have called him this morning and said over the phone, "Happy Birth-day ta yewwwwwwww!!!!" (old family joke). It makes me sad that I'll never say that to him again, or hear him say it to me, but I can carry on the tradition and say it to my other family members, who will immediately understand the reason I say it that way.
A few minutes ago, my sister called to tell me that my Aunt Kathleen, who at 88 was the oldest and last survivor of the 4 Edwards siblings, died at 12:00 today at the Masonic-Eastern Star Home in Greensboro. On Daddy's birthday. What could be more appropriate?
And so now they're all up there in Heaven, talking about old times, happy, laughing and feeling good. No arthritis, no Alzheimers, no heart ailments....just the spirited, lively Edwards siblings - Kathleen, Archie, C.B. and Mary Louise, reunited once again. When I picture that in my mind, it makes me smile.
I love and miss you, Daddy, and although I still have moments of profound grief, losing you is getting a little less painful every day. Gradually, I'm learning to go on without you, and it's okay.
Happy Birthday.
About Me
- Charlene G
- One of the less than desirable results of "maturing" is the tendency towards cynicism. I, however, refuse to believe, despite ample experience to the contrary, that most people are out to screw you, all men are pigs, politicians are only after money and power (oh wait...) Politically, I'm a lifelong Democrat, but am not extreme. I believe extremism, whether in politics, religion, or one's beliefs, does no one any good, leads to division, and prevents us from finding common ground with each other. I also firmly believe that it is not the years in a person's life, but the life in a person's years. I am a vital, active woman who likes to have fun, hang out with friends, experience life and learn new things every day. C'mon, hang out a while. Read my blog, get to know me a little. I'm glad you stopped by!
2 comments:
A birthday of loved one who has passed away are always difficult. I think they are more difficult then the anniversary of their death. I wish I knew what to say to make you feel better. All I can do is...
*BIG HUG*
I am sorry I haven't stopped by in a while. I have been distracted with RL. Anytime you need to talk you know where to find me.
Love Ya
Thank you BG, my friend.
Just knowing I have friends who support me when I'm down goes a long way in making things better.
*BIG HUG* right back at ya!
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